There comes a time in every persons life when you take a step back look at your life & think is this what makes me happy. And if not what changes do I need to make?
In my case, it has been a choice of as to whether or not to continue competitive bodybuilding. And I have come to the decision that I no longer feel the need to do this in my life. A prep for me is a total of 16 weeks, during this time I personally put my whole life on hold. I become a robot, EAT.. SLEEP.. TRAIN.. REPEAT.. Furthermore, I don't want my life on "hold" anymore.
Was it worth it competing all these years? YES.. I gained such great self confidence, met tons of people, even made a few close friends. Got to shoot with some great photographers! All of this I will carry for me forever.
Now don't get me wrong, I will still be in the gym atleast 4-5 days a week training as hard as I possible can. My love for the gym & the fact that I like to train will never leave. But If there is ever a day I don't feel like training ... well I won't, & I won't feel guilty about it in return. I look forward to doing different kinds of training, I will enjoy adding more variety.
A challenge for me now is being able to maintain the same type of confidence that competing gave me. I'd be lying if I didn't say I'm still as confident as I have been but I'm not. But I will get there again, without competing.
On the flip side of things I'm looking forward to Oct 17th the day I will be getting married. I look forward to what the future holds with that. And I look forward to supporting my future husband as he continues to compete.
4 more weeks till my wedding day!
